This is the third phone call I have received this week from a friend trying to answer the same question I am facing. The phone calls always shock me from our generation of voice call phobia, but it has now made me chuckle to have THREE people call me dealing with the same issue I am.
”What should I do with my life?!” None of us seem to be able to work out what will make us happy as well as pay our bills and have our kids taken care of as well.
They all say similar things once the initial topic is out of the way, all boiling down to the notion 'you have what you want to do down and you are working towards it. Tell me what to do Kate.'
That is the true laugh of all the situations. In reality, I don't know what I want to do. I have a current situation I am working towards, but as of late I have discovered it isn't what I want to do with my life.
The realization makes me even more exhausted than I already was. All the work, all the studying, networking, and more- wasted. Useless. In a sense anyway. I don't believe education or contacts or time spent on anything is ever useless. Lessons learned, sure, but not useless.
I've been working a long time now towards finishing my marketing degree and officially be a social media community manager consultant. I'm almost done. I have had to extend my degree time due to personal happenings and actually end contracts with a few clients. The only thing I will guarantee is I am graduating this summer.
I don't necessarily want to search for more clients again once I am done. I'm done expanding myself in this sense. That is the one thing the podcast has taught me in the last three months.
Doing the podcast with Brooklee has awakened my deeper calling in a new sense. So many ideas have flooded in. So many realizations about myself. And the reminder that I don't want to live a life just getting through; I want a live a life that I love.
I want to continue managing The Classy Bish Collective where we talk about life, have guest take-over's sharing their businesses (direct sales and otherwise), and connecting womxn to create friendships.
I want to start writing fiction, not just blogging through here and Instagram.
I want to start creating courses with Brooklee that stem from the teachings of the podcast and expand further into it all.
I want, I want, I want. My list of wants in life have grown in the last few months of self-reflection and every time I work towards each want my soul is set afire and abundance flows in.
It’s the moments I question my life and what I am doing that everything dies out like an ant under my foot as I walk down the street. Then I get down and seem to forget about the things that were lighting me up. I believe this can be said about everyone.
Each of us have things we enjoy doing that could bloom into situations bigger than us. Be it writing, astrological work, creating, art, whatever it may be, they are all things that could lead us to outlets that bring abundance in multiple ways.
I want to encourage all of my friends to take some time to think about the things that light your soul aflame. Write them all out on a piece of paper. Then write out what could be done with each of these things business-wise.
Who knows, what could change your life could be a brainstorm session away.